A/N: Without his memories Alecew is vulnerable especially when he thinks he might be trapped with Vader.
Seeing Anakin had brought back his fears from his childhood dreams of Vader. Alecew was starting to think they had been visions and it terrified him to think he was trapped with the Jedi killer for his whole life. It's only in the aftermath of his attack does Alecew realize how close he was to tapping into the same dark power. Anakin hadn't let him out of his sight since the incident and Alecew couldn't say he entirely blamed him.
It comes as a surprise when they take off in their old ship which he's fairly certain was supposed to be locked up by one of the members of the council. The course was set before Anakin turned his attention back on the teen and Alecew tried to keep his fear at bay.
"I know this isn't easy. You feel like you've been lied to and manipulated. The council has forced us to stay within the temple walls like glorified prisoners. You may not believe it but I do know how that feels. I also know that misunderstandings can lead to a darker place." In a fluid motion Anakin kneeled next to his seat. "Before we came back I promised myself that I'd never fall to the darkside again. I won't let it have you either."
To make his point Anakin dared to lay his hands onto Alecews' wrist. Like or not they are linked and nothing would change that. It's a frightening thought but visually it's startling to note the absence of the prosthetics he had often seen in his nightmares. Cold mental was warm flesh. There's so much about the both of them that's mindblogging to realize that Alecew still has trouble accepting it all. They were dead for hundreds of years yet there they were flying across the galaxy once again.
"I hid my fears from those I cared about and let them consume me. It made it easy to be exploited. Tell me what you fear Alecew and we can come up with a solution together."
As much as he wanted to keep silent Alecew finds he can't because he doubted there was anyone else who would understand. Whether or not he can trust Anakin doesn't matter as much as venting his anxiety. The legends of Darth Vader come first followed by his visions and the trapped feeling he constantly has.
"Everyone knows what's best for me. I understand the reasoning behind the decisions made. I get the concept of the will of the force. But...do I have any free will?"
"Yes. Master Skywalker knows we left and we're both leaving the option of whether this ship returns in your hands. Do you want to go back to the temple?"
Alecew has already given the matter some serious thought. "I know the wise thing to do would be to stay to keep safe from the a order of Medap since I already proved I'm not to be trusted."
If he couldn't handle the truth without always falling apart it didn't seem likely that he's last long against them. Being an agent of evil isn't something he wanted to become.
"All you proved you needed to know the truth. Once you've accepted it there's nothing the order of Medap can use against you." Gentle caresses passed over Alecews' mental shields to test the waters. There was no demand for entry just letting the teen know he was there. "And I'm not asking what's logical. I'm asking what YOU want to do."
"I want to go." It's not the sort of thing a Jedi should say and Alecew instantly feels guilty for it. "But maybe we shouldn't..."
"No. We're leaving. If you want to return someday we will." A squeeze to the wrist reminds Alecew that the man from his nightmares was still holding onto him. At the moment it was hard to connect Anakin to the monster that slaughtered so many.
"I'd be risking everything for selfish reasons." Alecew felt the need to point this out fairly certain his shameful behavior was being brushed aside far too easily.
"You were the most selfless person I ever knew in our last life. If anyone deserves to be selfish it's you. As for risking everything I already told you that I won't allow you to turn to the darkside." The way Anakin said it Alecew could almost believe it was true.
After a moment of contemplating the opportunities open to him now the man rose with a small half smile. "Who knows, maybe you'll be the one getting married in this life."
"Maybe." A thought suddenly occurred to him out of no where that's utterly embarrassing and as if sensing his discomfort Anakin circled around to face him again.
"Is something bothering you? You can ask."
"No thank you." Alecew tried to drop the topic but Anakin wasn't having any of it.
"There's no need to be shy just because I know more than you." There was something childish about that statement that he chalked up to Anakin enjoying his role as the more experienced one a little too much. The tone annoyed Alecew so much he figured he might as well say what he thought and hoped it shut his companion up.
"Are you a virgin?"
Anakin blinked clearly not expecting that question. "Uh...no. I was married."
"Yes but in another life. So doesn't that mean that you are one now?"
"That's really none...alright techically yes. I simply haven't had any interest in anyone besides my wife." The man shrugged his shoulders as if it was nothing although his expression told another tale. That Anakin didn't like that he had been outmaneuvered and Alecew felt compelled to press his advantage.
"Then again...it's not exclusive to marriage."
"Don't try to be funny, Alecew."
"Well how old were you when you got married?" He suspected it wasn't much older than he was because Anakin sputtered and abruptly changed the subject.
It was strange how easy it was to go from being terrified of the former Sith to teasing him.
Re: As Long as It's You 8/?
Seeing Anakin had brought back his fears from his childhood dreams of Vader. Alecew was starting to think they had been visions and it terrified him to think he was trapped with the Jedi killer for his whole life. It's only in the aftermath of his attack does Alecew realize how close he was to tapping into the same dark power. Anakin hadn't let him out of his sight since the incident and Alecew couldn't say he entirely blamed him.
It comes as a surprise when they take off in their old ship which he's fairly certain was supposed to be locked up by one of the members of the council. The course was set before Anakin turned his attention back on the teen and Alecew tried to keep his fear at bay.
"I know this isn't easy. You feel like you've been lied to and manipulated. The council has forced us to stay within the temple walls like glorified prisoners. You may not believe it but I do know how that feels. I also know that misunderstandings can lead to a darker place." In a fluid motion Anakin kneeled next to his seat. "Before we came back I promised myself that I'd never fall to the darkside again. I won't let it have you either."
To make his point Anakin dared to lay his hands onto Alecews' wrist. Like or not they are linked and nothing would change that. It's a frightening thought but visually it's startling to note the absence of the prosthetics he had often seen in his nightmares. Cold mental was warm flesh. There's so much about the both of them that's mindblogging to realize that Alecew still has trouble accepting it all. They were dead for hundreds of years yet there they were flying across the galaxy once again.
"I hid my fears from those I cared about and let them consume me. It made it easy to be exploited. Tell me what you fear Alecew and we can come up with a solution together."
As much as he wanted to keep silent Alecew finds he can't because he doubted there was anyone else who would understand. Whether or not he can trust Anakin doesn't matter as much as venting his anxiety. The legends of Darth Vader come first followed by his visions and the trapped feeling he constantly has.
"Everyone knows what's best for me. I understand the reasoning behind the decisions made. I get the concept of the will of the force. But...do I have any free will?"
"Yes. Master Skywalker knows we left and we're both leaving the option of whether this ship returns in your hands. Do you want to go back to the temple?"
Alecew has already given the matter some serious thought. "I know the wise thing to do would be to stay to keep safe from the a order of Medap since I already proved I'm not to be trusted."
If he couldn't handle the truth without always falling apart it didn't seem likely that he's last long against them. Being an agent of evil isn't something he wanted to become.
"All you proved you needed to know the truth. Once you've accepted it there's nothing the order of Medap can use against you." Gentle caresses passed over Alecews' mental shields to test the waters. There was no demand for entry just letting the teen know he was there. "And I'm not asking what's logical. I'm asking what YOU want to do."
"I want to go." It's not the sort of thing a Jedi should say and Alecew instantly feels guilty for it. "But maybe we shouldn't..."
"No. We're leaving. If you want to return someday we will." A squeeze to the wrist reminds Alecew that the man from his nightmares was still holding onto him. At the moment it was hard to connect Anakin to the monster that slaughtered so many.
"I'd be risking everything for selfish reasons." Alecew felt the need to point this out fairly certain his shameful behavior was being brushed aside far too easily.
"You were the most selfless person I ever knew in our last life. If anyone deserves to be selfish it's you. As for risking everything I already told you that I won't allow you to turn to the darkside." The way Anakin said it Alecew could almost believe it was true.
After a moment of contemplating the opportunities open to him now the man rose with a small half smile. "Who knows, maybe you'll be the one getting married in this life."
"Maybe." A thought suddenly occurred to him out of no where that's utterly embarrassing and as if sensing his discomfort Anakin circled around to face him again.
"Is something bothering you? You can ask."
"No thank you." Alecew tried to drop the topic but Anakin wasn't having any of it.
"There's no need to be shy just because I know more than you." There was something childish about that statement that he chalked up to Anakin enjoying his role as the more experienced one a little too much. The tone annoyed Alecew so much he figured he might as well say what he thought and hoped it shut his companion up.
"Are you a virgin?"
Anakin blinked clearly not expecting that question. "Uh...no. I was married."
"Yes but in another life. So doesn't that mean that you are one now?"
"That's really none...alright techically yes. I simply haven't had any interest in anyone besides my wife." The man shrugged his shoulders as if it was nothing although his expression told another tale. That Anakin didn't like that he had been outmaneuvered and Alecew felt compelled to press his advantage.
"Then again...it's not exclusive to marriage."
"Don't try to be funny, Alecew."
"Well how old were you when you got married?" He suspected it wasn't much older than he was because Anakin sputtered and abruptly changed the subject.
It was strange how easy it was to go from being terrified of the former Sith to teasing him.